The Way I Used to Be (2018 Nutmeg High School Nominee)

The Way I Used to Be--by Amber Smith Eden is a quiet fourteen-year-old band nerd who just entered into her freshman year of high school. But everything changes the night a family friend rapes her and threatens to kill her if she tells anyone. Eden keeps it a secret and finds she acting out to avoid dealing with the pain. The book follows Eden though four years in high school as she tries to deal with what happened and the way she used to be.